For you..

There were times that I felt like life is so rude that it never gave the chance to change what I have done. There were things that buggles my mind like "does she misses me too the way I miss her so much?" There are hundreds of questions but none of this has the answer. All that would make me ruins me. It ruins me because everytime I stay up late and alone, I presume things like that for sure would never be important with you.

 Telling me that you'll get over me was the hardest words to hear. I've been expecting too much from you. Too much that I could not take. Haven't you that for the long years that you've been gone I was a trash in the garbage pit. No use. Self-destructed. I keep telling myself that someday I will be seeing that face again and even that day would take me years and years to happen, I will not be weary and I will wait. Maybe not faithfully but patiently. And now that we have finally met, hearing those words from you drags me to death. It hurts like hell and it fierce through my heart. I am a coward. A very disappointing woman. I am of no good at all. Everything in my life falls out of pieces. And when I heard those words of letting go, there's nothing I could ever wished but to close my eyes and think of those days when we think nothing but fun and happiness seven years ago. When we were both inlove in a special way. That was comforting. The most comforting feeling I could ever embrace.

 When I put my hands together, I always had that thought that maybe I was right. Time will come that you will hate me for who I am and get shame on WHAT I'VE DONE. But despite the fact that I was the craziest woman that night hoping that somebody would take care of me, was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I have again entrusted myself to someone who have left me seven years ago. Someone who came back to tell me that it was over. I never thought it would be ending that way. It hurts like hell.

 I maybe the stupidist girl and the busted woman in the whole world, but i am proud with one thing. I never wore a mask for people to love me. I never did wear a mask for you to like me. Who i was seven years ago was same woman i would ever been and that woman whom you left has been silently waiting for your sweet return.

 Now it ends here.

 I just wish its seven years ago...

 Once more.


 :'(

Fly High Pinay

These photos were taken at Overview, Bukidnon. Ang saya sa Pilipinas! This was my first time so I am really sorry for the poop facelasss.. :D

It's More than You would Ever Imagine

Depress, sad and Heartaches

         If there would be an exact word to describe what am I feeling right now, that would be "miserable". I am in complete misery to night and for past few days. I feel depress and consciously unhappy. I am strong outside but inside, don't mind to ask. I am full of miseries and depresses. I wanted to cry for the things that are happening and to cry why God can't even give me somebody to tell this feelings. Theses thoughts in my brain is killing me and I am in complete vanity and sorrow. I am alive but dead inside. Wake up but asleep inside. I am strong but the fact is I am weak, so weak and I get even weaker and weaker and weaker.
        In life, we can't really wish things to grow smooth always. There will always be rough moments, tough ones and can even make us barely move. I am amidst of a surrender. My heart is crying and I wanna shout that I AM REALLY TIRED. I am tired of fitting myself to people. I am tired asking for love. I am tired for being bad in their eyes. I am tired of being me. Why am I like this? Why can't I be true to myself? Why can't I have people to share my feelings? Why am I always alone in this world? Why?? Why??
      I am building my confidence, trying to smile laugh and go along with people but I can never answer even the simplest question of my own- why do you pretend? I am hurting myself and nobody cares about me. I am alone in this world. Alone.. alone.. alone..

Zoology Trip at Calamcam

Enticing and Alluring

I will really agree with you if you will say that I am not beautiful. Yeah I am not! but I have the poise, the confidence and everything that it takes to be a lady :) Smile with me as I share to you sort of my edits. About my title? yeah right! you've thought what I've just thought..

Looking afar. Looking ahead. Advancing and renewing. Life is all about moving on.

Smile. Smile and don't what would they say. I am beautifully blessed each step of the way.

I'm not seductive. I'm not attractive. I'm purely ME, MYSELF and I.

Don't have to linger. Don't have to get weary. Why get faint if your have the choice to smile.

Worrying is a natural thing. Worry forever is worst. Take a second and breath in. Life has plenty of things to cherish.

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Let's talk about LOVE

Every woman has a dream to find true love. By natural occurrence, woman by description is weak in terms of love. No matter how strong does she looks or frightening maybe, a woman will always be a woman-soft, gentle and easy. I really find it hard to believe why men could always afford to hurt a woman intentionally(take note of the word). It's like a situation wherein, women will never leave her partner if she has always reason to stay. The problem among men is, they're self-sufficient, sometimes arrogant and effortless. Most men do the same thing with the rest of the woman they have tasted.

I'm not saying this to all men for I am a believer too that there are still real men in this world willing to be real man in their position in a relationship. Women, even they commit mistakes, they always have that softness deep within. That is the distinct and most unique thing about a woman- kind-hearted. That maybe  is of the reasons why most women cry. Tears from a woman's eye is a sign of weakness, unlikely from, tears is a sign of bravery.

Hearts like wind get lost. Like a stomach it loses its appetite. Heart like heart falls apart. It is the most fragile thing that once its broken, tidbits are almost impossible to see. That's why it must be handled with care.

Humans by nature always searches for love. It moves the world and gives us the reason to continue to live. Love is the most specific world to express why a woman would spend the whole week grieving and crying. Sadness by virtue of consequences is the product of love. Before entering the wide range world of love, one must be ready because in every sweet thoughts that a lover has comes great pain and everything ends in regret.

Love is over when one of you gives up. And if the other continues to love, the relationship has 50-50 to sustain. Love is the battery between two people who intend to share heart with each other.

Love is a wonderful world to hear and yet not everybody are lucky enough to feel this. Love like flowers are fragnant to the soul. Love is magical and extraordinary. But on the other side, love is painful and it can even torn your whole spirit into pieces. Love is powerful that it can dig in our soul and manifest in our thoughts. Love when sick has no cure but only love itself. As a fan of William Shakespeare, "if pain is too much and the burden is full, you can now complain". It is my own translation and maybe therefore I say, I am loveless but never been loved for less. I maybe missing someone and the pain is killing me but I know for sure I can handle this for I know, as love conquers its end, so do I.

Smile singles. It will not take too long, ours is the diamond.