From being far from home, from studying GenSan at Notre Dame of Dadiangas University(BS Accountancy), I am now having an all-new life here at Central Mindanao University. I took up BS Biology(all sciences) and its actually far from anything I have been dreaming of especially from my previous course. CMU is just 15 minutes from our home unlike GenSan which is 8-10 hours trip. Though my situation there starts with nothing, my life when I transferred here was still nothing too although i am a native of this land.
My classmates are all younger than me and everything starts from being so "odd". Knowing the fact that I am older than most of them, they usually call me "ate"..lurky! but its okay. Everything starts from being likely a common freshmen awkward thing and nothing has been so excited for me(even the first day).
Everyday, I took a ride on a bus and it is really stressful. Far from the college life I've dreaming of, hopefully I would be loving this course and little by little, I will overcome every stressful day. Again, I am a Freshmen and i just can't wait to move forward on a higher year. I no longer have those high school missing dramas unlike my classmates now but honestly, it feels so bad that i just felt so behind(sayang man gud) and that is depressing. CMU is a great school, its awesome and fun. But there's always that space missing in me.My heart is still left in GenSan and everyday, i miss being there. I miss my classmates there and it will always be. I know i will be fine soon. I have to learn to love being a CMUans and not a Marista anymore. I have o fight this missing feelings to make me enjoy being near. Its just, this place isn't working out for me I think. Everything is so different now and I have to accept the fact that I have to start building my emotional, social and physical self all over again.
I pray to have more strength to smile and energy to face every challenge..:) I pray to be stronger and even braver every single day.. missing u so much NDDU..:')
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